I toss and turn and tremble from a dream
Or did I only shiver in showers
Of sweat, funeral fire, and splattered skin?
All these imprints pierce me like burning scars.
I scream and wail and blame myself as I
Rock the cold, contorted corpse of my friend,
Whom died, at last, on a Sunday mourning,
Pouring ashes into the urn of my brain.
I have to leave you behind, my comrade
Falling line-by-line into gray trenches—
Forgive us, farmers, for your summer fields
As we count the death row that leans on edge:
A German mariner drowns underwater.
A Russian tanker kills the fits of self.
A French pilot lets go of Heaven's arms.
Our own so
Heavy boots clink clank into the bedroom
Past the fading flame flickering softly
To where a lonely old man lay face-down
In pools of blood surrounded by pictures.
He could have been a child's grandfather,
His face beaming as his family stepped
Through the door of eternal years gone by,
His veiny hands gently pushing the swing.
He could have been a five-star veteran,
Screaming, dying, forced to fight a war but—
Pacing around the bunker to ward off
The marching hordes dancing in. Carry on.
He could have been a pained cancer patient,
Thirteen tumors bubbling in his throat
As the last cigarette burned on the floor
Of